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and further proof that I'm a loser (although in all fairness, my ex uploaded the picture and created the account for me, she was being a smart-ass):
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| Two blogs at Once? |
| 02.16.05 (4:32 pm) [edit] |
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Weird... oh that's better.... ok, bloggin here, there and everywhere :shock:
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| LEaving TBLOG |
| 09.13.04 (12:52 pm) [edit] |
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YA... decided I'm gonig back to my old blogger... blogger.com... naale.blogspot.com. I will soon have my website back up and running, and I can publish my blog directly to my site, which I can't do with tblog... it was a pleasure guys... ciao!
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| First Day of School |
| 09.09.04 (1:58 am) [edit] |
Well, yesterday was my first day of universitah
It is going to be an interesting year I think ^_^
Having gone to 4 of my five classes for this semester, I think the only course I'm not going to like all too much is my Intro to English Lit class. Now I just have to figure out how to get all my books seeing as I'm still fighting with Student Loans.
I'm all settled into my new place, got a band on the go, life is starting to smooth out good. Now if I could just get away from Winners, life would be perfect.
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| My Birthday |
| 08.25.04 (7:47 pm) [edit] |
So, Jazz took me for dinner for my birthday, adn then we went to La Cave for cheesecake, it si great. I am pretty sure that I really like her, but I'm not sure what to do... I feel like she is out of my league, and add the fact she moves to Michigan next summer... I don't know.... I had a wonderful evening, I had the biggest urge to give her a kiss on the cheek... but I didn't... I dont' know if I should tell her, or not.. I dont' know what to do.
Help me people
PS. The Rosti.. tasted damn good ^_^
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| Jasmine and Rosti |
| 08.24.04 (4:33 pm) [edit] |
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Jasmine's here... she's hot and sexy and she doesn't know how to blog... so I'm showing her what blogging is, and making potato and zucchini rosti, but it looks like someone got really really sick. Umm... my day sucked at work... work sucks my ass!!
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| An Evening With El Java Bean |
| 08.23.04 (8:28 pm) [edit] |
I had a wonderful discussion with my friend Shannon this evening over coffee, we covered all kinds of stuff, like how we've realized htat as we've gotten older, we are starting to revert back to more old-fashioned thinking, with regards to TV, the Net, etc. and also a lot about crumbling social and family values. We discussed the changing roles that men and women are playing in today's world, and the potential impacts that it all makes, it was an absolutely lovely discussion... which ended with me banging my head against the wall because i Had tender spot on the top of it and I was trying to accurately differentiate way it felt when I hit the tender spot as opposed to the rest of my head, which of course gave way to a discussion about how not smart I can be sometimes... and also how I've ben trying to pay more attention to sensory perception in myself to really kind of analyze the sensations I feel...
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| Save Yourself - Sense Field |
| 08.23.04 (1:12 pm) [edit] |
This song makes me cry:
Save Yourself
Turn out the light
Just say goodnight, to yourself
May I remind you
When you find you, you're all alone is when you've got to be strong
Cause that's when they call you, in the night
He's got your picture in his mind
He's got your number on a paper at his disposal anytime
Is it really true
Could you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you
So many times we just give it away, to someone who
Someone who you
Met in bar
The back of a car
And for a moment you felt important but not in your heart
My self esteem, it's been low, go ahead and count it's been lower than low
I know the feeling of it stealing life out from under me
I want to learn, how you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you
So many times we just give it away to someone who, couldn't even remember your name
Could you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you, loves me for me
Give it away to someone who someone who will cherish your name
Cause I want to learn, can you save yourself for
Someone who will love you for you so many times we
Just give it away, someone who, couldn't even remember your name
You save yourself for someone who, loves you for you,
Loves me for me
Give it away to someone who, someone who will
Cherish your name
Cherish your name
... I guess I identify with it alot, and the end about saving yourself for someone who will cherish your name is somehting I cling to, while hoping fiercely.
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| Lindying to Acadian Folk |
| 08.16.04 (7:50 pm) [edit] |
So... not much of an eventful week... but the weekend turned out interesting.. well, Sunday anyhoo
Samba Nova played in the Chafrail Parade for the Acadian festival... I sat in on snare, scary thought! I held my own pretty good though. It was great, we had all these Acadians following us, cheering and dancing, good times were had by all.
We went into the fenced off area at Citadel Hill and finsihed up in front of main stage... the best part... we were encored! It was awesome!
Well, we got free passes to the night's concert, which also proved to be interesting... my lil sis came along to hold the sticks in case some of us dropped ours, and she had no intention of going, so I took her pass and invited Jasmine, a fellow swing dancer, fresh back from Michigan to join... we had fun, saw a lady doing a flying ass-flop while doing some crazy jig.. that was funny!
I think the best part was Lindy Hopping towards the end... to Acadian Folk-Pop music, it was so much fun... I haven't Lindy'd all summer so it was wonderful to get back into the swing of things... no pun intended, lol.
I'm sure we got some interesting looks from onlookers as I swung Jasmine around in circles to music that isn't overly suited to swing.. but it has four beats to a bar, so it worked well :)
Today, we met up and she dragged me all over Dal as I had no idea where to go to drop off a letter for space booking for the upcoming swing year... good times ^_^
Well, a really long, shotty week of work ahead.. :( but the Delegates are playing the Attic Friday, might have to check them out.
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| Oh Dear! |
| 08.11.04 (9:39 pm) [edit] |
Interesting Piece?
The thing I find interesting is that she has to throw some obvious cheap shots at us... although she should be aware that lack of movement actually makes you colder... we spend lot's of energy... compare our rates of obesity to that of the US and we have far less fat people. We are active, we are active in many things, we take stands when we must, and we will be downright obstinate if we must... but we believe in the idea of world peace through peace, not peace through war.
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| No Good Cause |
| 08.11.04 (2:58 am) [edit] |
Sailed in on a ship
landed at port
the guiding ramps
guided him straight to your arms
And that opened the flood gates
rivers of relief mixed with happiness and
months of lonely wiping fear from your eyes
have gone, in this, this moment
where nothing else mattered anymore
he's home
What about the thousands who got the call
Who are faced with the fact that they've lost it all
the picture they hold in their hands
belongs now to a ghost that
will forever haunt their dreams as they remembered how
they begged him not to leave
but he went for his country
to fight a war somewhere else
because he was proud to be
proud to serve and protect
and they are faced with the realization
he died for a no good cause
and the tears that won't stop
and the pain that lives on inside
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| GET A JOB |
| 08.10.04 (3:03 am) [edit] |
I'm am so sick of being asked for changed by healthy young kids who are just can't be bothered to get a job. Every single street punk out there god damn it. I had a squeegee kid ask me for change, when I said I had none, she said she could hear it... It was my fucking keys she heard... I had a penny change from the solitairy bun I bought myself at the Superstore with my last 30 cents. Just cuz I don't look like I'm in the streets, doesnt' mean that I"m not poor enough to be in the streets... chances are, I have far less money than any of you guys do.. actually, I guarantee that I have less money than you.. even when I have money, it isn't mine I owe so much.
I'm all about giving money and/or food to people that really need it, even though I myself don't have any, but these guys don't need it, they are just avoiding the real world... which is fine... except that really, begging for change? That's just being lazy, if you want to take yourself off of the grid, buy some seeds, an axe and a saw and go take off into the woods, start your own commune or something, but don't ask people for money and then get obnoxious when they don't give you any. I'm quickly at the point where I'm going to tell one of you off because I'm sick of how irate you get... if you need something, fucking work for it, you are all able-bodied kids. The old folks in wheel chairs are a slightly different story... unless they are only faking being in the chair of course, but I"m not passing that kind of judgement.
I was once hanging around with some punks with my friend Ben, and this friend of theirs comes up and was like, "man, I made $30 panhandling for change today." WTF? The guy had a part time job and was begging people for change on the side!
When I lived in Victoria, I saw a couple of girls begging for change... and applying fucking makeup at the same time!!
Grrrrrrrr that makes me so mad.
GET A JOB
In Other News: I did inventory of my cupboards and fridge... this is what I have left:
- 1 Pkgs Angel Hair Pasta
- 3 Pkgs Mr. Noodles
- 2 Sacs of Lipton Cup of Soups
- 1 Can of Tuna
- 1 Cups worth of Rice
- Sugar
- Some Various Teas
- Jar of honey that my friend John gave me.. it is half empty
Fridge:
- Standard condiments.. Ketchup, Mustard, some Teriyaki
- maybe two sandwiches worth of PB
- A Week's worth of Coffee
- 2 Days worth of milk for my coffee
- A 2/3 full tub of margarine
And that ladies and gentlemen, is what I have to survive off of.
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| FAlling for Someone.. Over the Web? |
| 08.09.04 (5:19 am) [edit] |
Is it possible to fall in love with someone over the internet?
I met this amazing, beautiful girl through a swing website (swing dance.. get your mind out of the gutters). After reading some of my more opinionated posts, she added me to her MSN and we started chattin'. And we chatted all night that night (thursday I do believe), and for a long time the lst night. It's weird to feel a total connection with someone who lives almost on the other side of the country. And I was sort of shrugging it off until three things happened:
a ) I was talking about going to see Sum 41 on Citadel Hill in Sept. and possibly going to see Sarah Harmer too, and she said that she was supposed to go to the Junos and she bought a dress and everything for it, and she never got to go, and now she has never worn the dress... so I said she could put it on and take a picture of herself and send it to me.. and she said "I might do that; other people have suggested it too, but I've never even considered it until now"
c ) She was talking about this profile she created on a dating website, for the heck of it, and how she was getting all these responses already from all these guys from the city... as a sort of joke, I was like "damn, looks like I got stacks of competition" and she said, "The only thing these guys have over you is location, if it weren't for that, I wouldn't have even bothered looking" Which made me feel all warm inside
b ) Her IM, "I just had the urge to randomly kiss you and I can't do it" Gave me massive butterflies the instant I read it... like crazy butterflies you have no idea
At that point, I realized that I was falling for this girl, even though in real life, I have never met her in person.
Help me peoples?
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| Hit |
| 08.09.04 (5:10 am) [edit] |
fallinangel8587 was in a car accident... much love goes out to her and her mom, I'm sure they will both be fine.
And to cheer you up girl: this is for you:
Horse Singin'
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| Need to Stop Drinking |
| 08.08.04 (3:27 pm) [edit] |
I need to nto drink so often.
I'm recovering from another hangover... this one made worse by the fact that I was ghetto last night and slammed a Colt 45 back in 30 min.
I was consistently told I was a mack all night... I guess I get a little friendly and a little more flirtatious...
I had a blast though, it was great.
Apparantly I was accepted into the group pretty quick, which apparantly is a surprise to these people, they say normally people don't just walk in and are instantly in the loop with the crew... and I did. Can't help it I'm just so damn cool! ^_^
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| GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR |
| 08.06.04 (12:41 pm) [edit] |
Why is that every time I try. all my effort turns into a huge fucking boot and kicks me right in the fucking teeth?
Having a cheque for the $250 deposit on my room going to bounce because my employer fucked up and so I didn't get paid... I have been looking for work for 2 months... I owe a ridiculous amount of money, now I'm going to make a terrible impression my landlord for the next year, gonna owe $40 in NSF facking charges that I can't afford, and I still don't have a facking thing to eat... all I wanted was a box of freakin cheese ritz crackers and a cigarette.. is that so much to ask? apparantly so.. so thanks to the idiots that apparantly can run a massive corporation, but don't know a damn thing about payroll, I'm getting screwed up the arse again. not looking good for me considering I need $750 all told by the end of this month, otherwise it's looking like I don't have a roof over my head come september
Not to mention I lost the ID bracelet one of my best friends gave me.... What the hell is going to happen next? Probably get denied my student loan...
I'm so fackin tired of trying... If I don't get my student loan, the life can fuck itself right in the fucking ass with whatever object it deems pleasurable because I give up... this world can rot for all I fucking care
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| Pay Day |
| 08.05.04 (6:30 pm) [edit] |
Hmmm.... well, ok, so I dont' know about this new BETA posting engine, but I get paid tomorrow... and I don't care if I have enough money for food or not, I am buying my damn cheese Ritz crackers... and I am eating them all... one ... by ... one...
I'm hungry... dammit, I want RITZ!!
In other news, you all need to visit the Hunger Site everyday and help feed homeless people, links are on the left side
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| Jammin' |
| 08.01.04 (4:24 pm) [edit] |
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jammed with this guy I had been talking to for a while through a music forum, we finally got together. It was really bizarre, but we wrote a whole song, first day and everything.. It was nuts.. looks like I'll be playing guitar in this band (originally he'd been looking for a drummer, but we jamming on guitar cuz I wanted to hear what stuff he was writing.. we ended up writing one of our own... crazy shit) If that keeps up, and we find a drummer, we'll be happening! Cool thing is that he wants to write social/political songs just like I do for the most part, so that is cool.
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| HAngover has Past |
| 07.31.04 (9:45 pm) [edit] |
Frank (stepdad) called me yesterday and asked if he could crash at the apartment later on as he was out, with Peter on the boat, entertaining clients. I said sure, that's cool... he decided when he got here, about midnite, that we would go out for beers... I like beers :)
Random Event #1: As we were walking down Spring Garden, we came up on Timothy's Coffee Shop type place. Anne was just locking up (for those who may read this and don't know, she is the girl in my prev. blogs, and for the record, we are totally chill, we talk and stuff, she is cool shit).
So we invited her and her friend... Jen? with us... and went to Rogue's Roost for beers (mmm, beers) I decided I must have one of Rogue's t-shirts... on the back, all it says is, "Just Try the Damn Beer." LOL
It was fun times, and after Rogues closed at 2, Anne had to go home (Jen? had left already) so Frank and I journeyed to the Liquor Dome to finish off the night with beers until 4... Along the way, Frank looks at me and says, "Elmer, she likes you. and I don't mean "likes" you, I mean likes you, she is totally into you, I can tell, the way she looks at you, and stuff (I don't remember the exact thing he said) Mark my words, she'll be done with this other guy soon enough, she'll come around." Well, I guess we'll see?
Into the Dome... the Dome is 3 bars in one... the Attic, Cheers, and then the Dome part. We started at Cheers, walked down to the Dome.
Random Event #2: while we were sitting, chilling, drinking Stella, a rather unruly group of drunk women comes along and are standing right near us... so Frank decides to touch the biggest girl's arm to grab her attention, and looks at her and says, "My friend here thinks your cute, he likes ya." :shock: WTF?!
Whatever, all in good fun, but this girl was messed, she was so loaded, all she was saying to one of her friends was, "You Scotian, you live here for 2 fuckin years, you Scotian, you fucking Nova Scotian!" I guess said friend was movng back out to BC for school. She wasn't so much as saying it, but screaming... pretty scary... and she couldn't figure out why her friends had cut her off :?
Random Event #3: We're still sitting there chillin, drinkin beers (I like b e e r s), I feel this kinda smuck on my shoulder blade.. it took me a second to react... but all I saw was the backside of what looked to be a rather attractive blonde, walking towards the dance floor. I looke at Frank like, WTF? He reached around and pulled a glow badge off of my shoulder and gave it to me. As we pondered the meaning of this, Frank decided to put it back on my shoulder.... maybe two minutes pass, and a short, attractive brunette grabs it off and goes about her way... WTF? :?
Random Event #4:Outside singing with a bunch of random people on the street.. busker was there rippin out some AC/DC... and this lady pulls out a kazoo! It was hilarious!!! anyway.. good times.
Tonight, after recovering from my hangover, went over to John's for a BBQ and stuff... now I'm home, going to bed... I'm zonked.
Peace
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| Course Registration |
| 07.26.04 (2:09 am) [edit] |
Here is my first year:
- Intro to English Lit
- Critical Thinking
- Human Freedom {Philosophy}
- Philosphies of Life (Didn't want to take, but the course I wanted to take wasn't being offered this year :o( )
- Evolutionary Psychology
- Social Behavior {Psych Course}
- Introductory Sociology
- Understanding Society {Sociology Course}
- Religion in Contemporary Culture
If it all works out, and my schedule goes through, I'll have no classes on Thursday and Friday in first semester, and no classes on Friday in second semester. YaY for picking your own course schedule :o)
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| A Loss for Words (incomplete) |
| 07.24.04 (5:59 pm) [edit] |
If I have no more words, and that's all I have lost
Then that's just fine for me, I have no need to speak
What are words but a formula to show how little you really know
So keep your words to yourself, when you come with a cohesive plan
and some pertinent insight, speak to me and I will listen
Until then, waste your words on someone who will listen
Because right now, I have no need of your words
Did you start with the best of intentions
found the way blocked with red tape
In a beaurocracy that prevents good from prevailing
As corporations control your decisions with threats of abandonment
Or was that which you spake only spoke
to appeal to the masses, the masses you had no desire to please
Where are the controls that prevent your dishonesty if this is the case
And why should the demise of the environment be any of your concern
when pleasing those who do not care because of the excess cost to protect a beautiful thing
They continue to pollute and you continue to obey
Does it eat you up that you are slave to those who wilfully destroy a world
A world that is now a breeding ground for respiratory disorders
When called to answer by your fellow man
You are at a loss for words
Does it eat you up that you are at a loss for words
does it eat you up that you can't step outside your door without a gas mask
That air warnings mean a child can't run outdoors and play
that a child is denied the thing that it cherises most:
the freedom to be outdoors and enjoy the beauty that surrounds them
A beauty that many of us forget
A beauty that you now fail to protect
Are you at a loss for words?
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| In Explanation |
| 07.24.04 (6:07 am) [edit] |
With regards to everyone sucking (my previous post), it's not so much that everyone does, but I discovered the girl that everything seemed to be progressing so well with is seeing someone... She wasn't sure about what was going on at the time with the other guy, and so thought she would see how it went with me.... and while she says that she really likes me, thinks i'm super attractive and smart, I guess she and this other guy had been kind of something that she wasn't sure what was but apparantly now is. So I got my hopes up, and as per norm, had them popped like balloons... :(
In other news... Student Loans still haven't approved me. I hate the beaurocracy behind it all... I can't figure out how me and my brother got our apps in a day apart and he was approved inside a week.. I'm now going on two months.
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| Self Prophetic |
| 07.23.04 (9:37 pm) [edit] |
Am not talking to anyone cuz everyone sucks
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| Broken Man |
| 07.22.04 (9:40 am) [edit] |
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Broken Man - A Better Today:
He's a broken man
Staring at the bottom of his empty beer
Wondering how the hell, did I wind up here
Praying God, won't u just take it all away
CUz I can't do it myself
How could u do this to me?
How could u let me end up like this?
What's there left for me in this life
besides loneliness and bitter nights
He lays awake, plotting ways to make it big
to escape this scrounging, to leave it all behind
and it's one step forward, a big kick in the teeth
just to set him back, love is out of reach
a simple life, is the most complicated life there is
He's a broken man
Staring at the bottom of his empty beer
Wondering how the hell, did I wind up here
Praying God, won't u just take it all away
Cuz I can't do it myself
How could u do this to me?
How could u let me end up like this?
What's there left for me in this life
besides loneliness and bitter nights
THis simple life, just trying make it through the night
another case of beer to a place so far from here
and he feels helpless, he doesn't feel a thing at all
He tried to make something of himself
I guess he was born straight into hell
MAybe when he dies, then he'll find
the heaven, the heaven he's been looking for
He's a broken man
Staring at the bottom of his empty beer
Wondering how the hell, did I wind up here
Praying God, won't u just take it all away
Cuz I can't do it myself
How could u do this to me?
How could u let me end up like this?
What's there left for me in this life
besides loneliness and bitter nights
cuz this simple life, is the most complicated life there is
A Better Today
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| Decaf? WTF?!!! |
| 07.22.04 (9:29 am) [edit] |
Well, I went to bed right after I talked to Ann... which would be about 7:30pm.. I slept, except for getting up to pee at 3am, until 9 this morning... what a beautiful sleep... needed it after the previous night!
I walked down to the Superstore to spend my last $7 to get some coffee, some milk for my coffee and some bread.
I get home... go to make myself some much needed coffee... and what does it turn into? DECAF! GRRRRRRRRR It is too far to walk in this heat all the way down there again.. so i drank decaf :(
Now am going to find out what the hell is going on with Student Loan, and drink some more decaf.. and do dishes...
and clean fish tank
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| Coffee Shop Girl, Pt 3: A Perfect Night |
| 07.21.04 (2:22 pm) [edit] |
So.. last night I met her just before she got off work.. I had more or less the intention of walking her home.. and taking as long as possible over it. Well, I get the, and she's like, "so I was thinking... and I think I'm going to take you out for a beer" :) hard to say no really... anyway we had beer and talked and talked... and then we left.. I had to work at 8, but I had more or less figured that I wasn't going to sleep... She kept saying I don't want to keep you up, I feel so bad... it was worth every second... We walked through Vicotira Park.. which I discoverd is also calle Wino park... we sat on a bench, and talked more... The park being right outside my apt building, and me needing to go pee really bad, I asked her if she wanted to meet my fishes. So we went to the apt. talked there.. I more or less told her, after she was saying how she should leave, that I wasn't planning on sleeping anyway.. By that point I would have slept through my alarm and been late.. much better to just stay awake. So we lay on my bed and talk and talked and talked.
Until finally, I had to do it... so I kinda looked at her and I was like, "I'm sorry, but I have to do this" and I kissed her
It was such a nice kiss :) She thought so too :oops:
So we kissed more... and talked... it was great
Then I had to go to work.. I was originally working from 8am to 1:30pm, but the boss decided that cash training was going to be done today after scamping... so I got my refresher training on cash when I was supposed to be at home asleep... But Ann stopped in to say hey.. well actually, she waved, and we mouthed words at each other... I don't know what she said :?
Anyway, to make a long story short.. everything except having had to go to work, was awesome!!!
I had pancakes for supper, and now I am going to sleep
Godd night!
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